Julia's Journal February 2010 Archives

Rejuvenation

Get good nights sleep. Rejuvenate the body, mind and spirit.

And that is exactly what I did! I have returned home to my family home and I asked for a good nights sleep and voila that’s exactly what I got!

I feel refreshed and rejuvenated and full of energy to start the day. Well, I am going to need it as I am visiting my grandsons today. And that will absorb lots of wonderful Grammy energy.

It’s a number nine day of resolution and conclusion. The day offers empowerment and consolidation. The cycle is coming to an end and we prepare for a new one. Lessons learned? Or has it been an intense exam?

I’ve felt very blessed and at ease this week. The cosmos has been kind and gentle. I feel serene and healed.

On our trip up from Canberra last night we played music from the past such as: The Big Chill, Practical Magic and The Boat that Rocked. It was nostalgic and yet we remained blissfully in the moment.

Even work this week has been a lovely calm and respectful haven. I suppose we all benefit when the planets are in harmony? I hope your week was a healing treasure trove too.

Let’s delve into the subconscious – The Tower is the obelisk filled with our values and beliefs. The rumble of distant thunder may threaten the serenity of our purpose. Lightening bolts may attack the fortress but we shall not be moved.

Hermes, the Magician is creative, communicative and confident. He is a trickster and utilises all of h is tools to create the destiny of dreams. He reminds me of my own special knowledge: the gifts of intuition, creativity and intelligence – pick up the wand, the cup and the sword and enter the magical realm of your dreams. Create the path to your future, Girl.

The Fool walks a new path. He is the adventurer, the bard the enthusiastic minstrel heralding changes that will take me from the stagnant pool of regret into the crystalline lake of possibilities.

Sure tried and true practices are important however when the lessons are done it is time to move on.

Bring on the marching band and step, one, two three.

Have a magical day of love and rejuvenation!

Peace, Love and Happiness,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Support

Offer your support to someone. Experience the joy of serving others.

A number seven day offers the opportunity to look within. Be still. Read. Meditate. Be open. I look within and receive answers.

The Moon in Capricorn remains focused on career and business outcomes. However, the numerological energy of the day inspires us to hurry up and wait. We are supported by our spirit guidance and the Angelic realm – we are never alone (even though it may feel like it from time to time).

The Sun flashes crimson across a grey and dull canvas. The morning has broken and the birth of a new day heralds a fresh perspective to a very old situation. I am free from the torment that holds me back from moving forward – don’t be afraid to make mistakes for they are lessons couched in stripped pyjamas.

Apollo the Sun God is prominent in my morning spread. Peace, joy and happiness are strummed on his golden harp. Good food and harmony filters through the esoteric sieve. My soul encompasses the blessings of this grand feast. I am encouraged to be still and listen to the sound of my heart beat – I am at peace.

Prometheus chose to sanction his own happiness so we could live a joyful life. Destined for solitude of his alienation he becomes a source of inspiration to spring out of the oppression of discontent and seek a future filled with love and respect.

The Great Benefactor rolls into the immediate future. The Ferris wheel of life is lit up and the music plays. It’s time to march to the beat of your own drum – the rhythm heralds a new phase – a tribute to your resilience.

So many conversations are laced with frustration. We are forced to stay where we are right now to experience the exquisite beauty of the Now! Look around. Look within. What do you see? Now is the perfect moment to showcase your dreams of yesterday!

The Lovers Breath

Over mountains I have trudged
Beyond the storms I have toiled
Swam in seas of treachery and danger
Never to fall to fear or anger

I have searched long and very far
To nestle at the breast of one so true
Nights alone I have felt blue
And all along it was only you.
You I have searched for all my life
To come to you and rest on you
Your touch, your words, your breath

Now I smile and watch the snow
I have come here and nowhere to go
Reborn at last amid the love so vast
To sigh a while and nurture my soul
Return to you and play so bold

Today I gazed into your eyes
What I found in you
The love and comfort, my blessings heard
The touch of my lover’s breath
The love and comfort, my blessings heard
The touch of my lover’s breath

Exquisite love sent from above
Forever thankful of bounties plentiful
A sunrise is the beginning of another day
To me you are my heart’s desire
I dance with delight
And celebrate our love so bright
To come to you, my head on your chest
Your heartbeat sound
And the soft sensation of your breath

Peace Love and Happiness,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Revelation

Listen to your life. The right path will reveal itself.

Take a personal inventory – adjust time if necessary. Group work is favoured. Review your diet. Does it need adjusting? Look at your personality. Could it be more cheerful? Look at your responsibilities. Any that needs taking care of? Do you owe anything? Now is the time to pay up.

Mercury moves into Aquarius today so your mind may tent to track off into many different directions. It’s a Mercury phase where creative possibilities are explored.

Strength represents the courage to face your fears and do it anyway.

Judgement forces you to shed the past and become vulnerable.

The Hanged Man offers solitude on the tree of life.

Temperance is my guiding light through the darkest nights.

Revelation insists that we listen to our lives. What does your inner dialogue reveal about your current phase? What are the conversations you are having with other people? Are they truthful? Or are they trite or just plain, not true?

We create the façade and layer it with the polite responses but are we hiding our true selves? A smile and a nod and a polite, “yes I am fine thank you!” hides a multitude of unexplored tangents. Are we ever brave enough to declare, “you know what, I’m not really that happy!”

Whatever your internal conversations reveal its time to listen to the rhythm of your soul and make honest adjustments to your inner dialogue.

I know we are explicit with our friends. Those who have weathered the emotional storms and stood by us even when life has turned ugly are part of the inner sanctum of the trusted ones. It is with these golden allies that we reveal the tiny crevices of our soul while confident that we won’t be judged.

The Moon in Capricorn insists on honesty and a clear path toward your goals. Pave the way with positive intention. Dreams reveal the direction of your soul. The footprints in the snow clarify the actions. Step lively and take a chance. You’re worth it!

The Rescue

She frolicked and giggled as she swum beneath the surface enjoying the freedom of her realm. Her friends were the dolphins and the whales and life was wet and wild. No one could harm her and no one knew of her existence. She swam and flirted with gay abandon until she realized that while she had the freedom and the fun within the ocean she never knew true love.

How could she miss it? She had never had it. Deep within a secret place in her heart there was an empty place; a place that no one had ever touched and yet she ached for that touch. She longed for the day when he would come, come and rescue me. Rescue me from me and rescue me from the pain of life without you.
6th October 1998
© JAS

Love, Peace and Happiness,
Julia Ashton-Sayers

Time

Schedule a sacred date with yourself. You desire time for your life.

Change and surprise are on the menus for this number five day. Look your best. Really dress up. Get out and look for the new. Positive change is in the air. Today you are free. Expect a good surprise!

I’m back to Belly Dancing classes tonight. It’s a fun class with lots of giggles and some great exercise too. I adore my teacher and the troupes I dance with are fabulous women – what a treat!

The Moon is in business oriented Capricorn today. I give the impression that Capricorn is all work and no fun but look at Jim Carey – now he is one funny man. Although there was that movie, Nine – now that was pretty dark? I guess if we are looking at movies to describe Capricorn then we could consider Aviator and or Citizen Kane for starters. I have to admit that one of my favourite Capricorns is Denzel Washington – that is one serious Capi!

The Sun is still in Aquarius and the house of friend and social networking is definitely lit up. The Uranian feel is phenomenal. Don’t you think that it is pretty amazing that you can tweet your Prime Minister, favourite politician or even an actor who captivates your imagination? I do. It’s fun and interesting – from my perspective I view this Uranian environment as an online community. It’s great to be alive in the new millennium.

My morning spread reveals a journey of creative pursuits, transformation, surprises and love connections. I guess the creative vibe is not that far from me at all – and being a Scorpio, transformation lingers on the rim of my reality. Surprises don’t pass this way very often as my strong intuitive aspect picks up the chatter on the radar pretty quickly. So, surprises are good then, don’t you think?

The Moon is void of course so goals and plans may be on the go slow – it doesn’t mean that we should stop striving though – it just means that they may take a detour or get bogged down in the swamp.

Tomorrow is another day as we continue on our path. Don’t forget to take some time for you – it is time well spent when you walk, dance or create in your special place – the Nirvana within your soul. Or perhaps you would rather spend the time with your soul mate?

Alchemy of the Soul Mate Connection

When a moon on a cloud cast night
Hung above the tree tops height
You sung of me of some distant past
That made my heart beat strong and fast
Now I know I’m home at last

There are no accidents in this life.
We have connected this time for a reason.
I cannot promise a life without strife.
However, I know for sure this is our season.

24th August 1998 © JAS

Peace, Love and Harmony,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Gratitude

Say thank you. Experience the joy of acknowledging others.

Zeus has sent the spites to earth in a chest. Pandora opens the lid and the spites sly out causing havoc in the world. Above the spites an Angel glides and smiles – she says, “where there is life there is hope”. Be gracious and you will overcome your daily fears and troubles.

The Wheel of Fortune and the Sun team up to bring the bounty of a new harvest. Normally, in a reading these two cards appear and it is a sign that there is a new babe on the way. For me right now that is impossible although I did dream about adopting a little girl the other night. Perhaps it is a new project instead?

It is a number four day – time to get up early and go to work. The party is over and we must forge ahead on project, tasks and jobs. I am organised and productive. The work you do today is lasting. I build foundations for tomorrow. I am healthy in body, mind and spirit.

There is a lovely link between Venus and Chiron today. It is a healing connection that the cosmos offers to heal parts of ourselves that have been damaged. Plus it is a nice transition to the Venus and Neptune alignment this week. Love and healing are top of the celestial agenda.

This is alos the find week of the Ox (Chinese astrology). We are heading toward a busy year of the Tiger. So, it is a good idea to get our house in order. What I mean by “house” is you – the temple for your soul.

This is a nurturing phase to offer love and respect to you once acknowledged then off it to others in the form of love and kindness.

Start with gratitude and add the building blocks from the cosmos to the supporting structure. Rebuild and anchor the structure with unconditional love and compassion.

For those who are preparing for St. Valentines this weekend here is a poem for you:

Ecstasy on High
Out of the swirling mass of energy that vibrates throughout the universe they happened upon one another. They knew that the sensation that pulsated throughout their very being was real. A sensation like no other; a herald, an announcement of what was to come; he touched her face and gazed lovingly into her eyes and at that moment she knew deep within her soul that she was going to be satisfied beyond the realms of her heart’s desire. As she maneuvered herself atop of him and felt his energy and love burst inside her body she knew deep within her soul that they were now connected for all eternity and that she was home.

8th September 1998
Peace, Love and Happiness,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Playfulness

Play with a child. Children are great teachers.

The Moon is in her most philosophical phase. Sagittarius rules the ninth house of long distance travel, higher learning and study. This is a light relief from the intensity of the Scorponic phase – dig deep at your peril – you never know what you might find?

It’s a number three day – party time – laugh and have fun day. Get on the carousel and enjoy the ride! Today is truly a perfect opportunity to express the joy of living. Look beautiful. Feel handsome. Express the joy that is in you and radiate it all around you. The colour is yellow and the jewel is topaz.

The energy of the day sure sounds like fun. The numerological vibe is encouraging us to socialise. Sadge loves to party too. Sagittarians quite often see the quirky side to life. They can trumpet up a party when the mood takes them. They are goo t have around as they don’t tend to take life too seriously – well not all the time anyway.

Last week during the contract exchange debacle I practised the art of detachment. The tension become so excruciating in the power and control vice that I tossed all of the issues (which were out of my control) into a pink balloon and tied a long string to it – floated it up to the sky and cut the string. I allowed the outcome to be determined by the parties involved and released the resolution to the Universe. It was a therapeutic act and one which I enable from t time to time when the need arises.

This act is part of my toolbox of life skills. I’ve popped it in there because as a Scorpio I can get pretty darn intense over matters which invade my logical mind and then seep into my emotional quarry. Of course the worry does not change the outcome and yet I constant seek a strategy to rectify the situation. However if the solution does not work I invest the next step, detachment.

The Chariot pulls me in two directions and yet I am mindful of the burn of the reigns in my hands. The signposts reveal a multitude of destinations unknown – where to from here? I don’t really know!

The Fool offers a new direction – take you kit bag and travel light. Don’t delay – it’s a new day – seek new territories to explore – don’t forget to close the door.

The Lovers won’t travel alone – they are locked in their embrace their heartbeat is synched in perfect harmony.

Enjoy the vibe of this glorious Sun-Day and share your smile with the world.

Peace, Love and Happiness,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Sumptuous Serena
Provocatively she pouted as she sat poised upon the golden sand. She gazed, amazed at how little effort was required to sparkle and dazzle the passersby. She was not like all the rest, shy and coy. She was here to make her entrance, to take on the world, or at least her corner of the world, on her terms.

Her name was Serena and she knew how to ensnare them. She acted coy and shy, however she enticed them with her wily ways, after all she was a mermaid. Fickle as a pickle she would play all day without a care, “not today” she would say “go away, go away” until the day HE came along, swimming by. It was then her eyes began to twinkle and her fins began to tinkle. She squirmed and tried to pout provocatively hoping he would notice her poise, her eyes and her soul. Now her days of flirtation were but a memory when he smiled at her that way that day.
10th October 1998
© JAS

Connection

Connect with someone special - a loved one is a gift to treasure.

11/2 is a Master Day – a day to follow your inner star. Be the light of the world for the world. You can be greatly inspiring today or you can inspire others. Follow the direction of the pipeline of wisdom from the highest source. Today I sparkle and shine in a quiet and peaceful way.

The Moon pulses in passionate Scorpio and therefore an intense day to follow your inner star. The Sun is still in Aquarius and therefore connection with someone special is important.

Humans are tactile beings. We thrive on connections albeit social interactions or intimate relations. Sure there are times when we like the solitary interludes however overall we are social creatures who love to meet, greet and gather in enclaves to celebrate the joy of living.

The High Priestess knows the power of solitude and the pain of rejection. Persephone was summoned to appear before the Devil to confront her fears, embrace her dark side and learn her lessons. She shares these experiences with us in her quiet repose and wise tutelage. I am a student. I am a devotee. I want to learn from her – and gather the lessons and integrate them into my life. If you live your life in the comfort zone how will you know what you are capable of?

The Fool rushes in where Angels fear to tread. Don’t waste a moment – savour the seconds and the hours will be sublime.

The Hermit is always cautious – don’t tread the path of uncertainty for you shall fall and skin your knee. Anyone got a bandaid?

It’s a Saturn-Day a day to connect or reconnect. I love to reconnect with my home, garden and plants. I am reconnecting with friends from Coffs Harbour who are flying down to see the Exhibition at the National Gallery http://nga.gov.au/Home/Default.cfm to see the Masterpieces from Paris. We will catch up for afternoon tea and then go to the Multi-cultural festival. A nice agenda, don’t you think?

The Sun appeared in all his glory this morning. The rain was refreshing and rejuvenating for the garden and our spirit. Now the Sun offers the golden panacea to brighten the canvas of the day.

Step out of your rut and inspire others with your wisdom, beauty and the essence of you. The world is a better place because you are in it!

Peace, Love and Happiness,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Return of the Beloved

As he meditated in the cold surroundings he could sense her presence. He knew she was close and had come to him from so far. He strode to the edge of the rocky shelf, took a life enhancing breath and gazed up in to the heavens. She appeared! Bright and surrounded by the white light that enveloped her, protected her and brought her to him. They knew each other immediately, their minds connected and their bodies tingled. He looked at her and ached. He would have stepped off right then and there but alas there was still work to be done. He could not leave just now, he gazed at her on high and promised that they would never part again “our energies will be intertwined for all time” he breathed “you will reside within me” said he.

Love

Choose love. Let your love be a powerful force for change.

Love is a sweet thing. Love of self, love of others – it is the best remedy for what ails our hearts, minds and soul.

It’s time to begin again; the first day of a new cycle. Be the leader today. Trust yourself and your intuition. Be original and creative. Be ambitious. Feel your own power. Be courageous. Anger, stubbornness, impatience or worry may tend to undermine your abilities. Look for the new.

So, what’s new with you? Its’ Friday and the Moon is in Scorpio. Scorpio is intense, pursuit of their goals and dreams. I’m not saying that all Scorpios can be bloody-minded (as I am quite well aware of their reputation in the zodiac). What I am saying is that they can be extremely focused when they want to achieve a goal.

The Devil strolls into my reading today. Keeping in mind that Carl Jung reminds us that the Tarot is the pictures of the subconscious – (a virtual storyboard of our unconscious journey). The Devil offers release from oppression. Oppression can be represented as fear. Sure, it can be the invisible shackles of another person’s control – but most times it is your own fear that something may or may not happen.

Strength represents courage and the force within to conquer your demons. Overcome the battles of torment and you will set yourself free.

Judgement is the release; the organic response of the liberation from your closet torment. Hark the herald angels sing – for you are free.

Rain on my window is a welcomed visitor this morning. Emerging from sleep with the pitter patter of the rain was a mystical greeting. The dry and dusty region has been oppressed by the drought and the rain offers respite.

It is predicted that we will receive quite a payload of heavenly elixir. I am hoping so! I know that there is the multicultural festival this weekend and the rain could interfere with the activities. I’m sure that the heavenly ambrosia will not destroy the enthusiasm though – so come along and celebrate the diversity of our nation.

Love, Peace and Happiness,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Journey into the Abyss

She lingered at the edge of sleep knowing that the journey was before her. As dream became her reality she ventured forth to the shore of abyss. What lay before her, she pondered?

Contemplating her voyage she drew the deepest and wondrous breath. Sigh. It is time! Time to go back to the water, time to loll and frolic with the others; time to sing her song in laughter, to celebrate her very existence, she sat upright in readiness; she knew that it was time to go.

Becoming more and more immersed her body tingled with anticipation. She sensed the changes within and felt the changes outside her body. Her thighs trembled with anticipation of the coming. Her back arched and in a moment of sublime pain her life and world changed.

She gazed back over her shoulder, a glimpse of what was. Now as she floated in the soothing and nourishing waters of her kingdom she felt awareness, an inner knowing that she had come home. Daybreak she frolicked with the others and lolled wistfully on the golden sands. This is her time! She felt the sun permeate her skin as a sensuality rushed over her. Now, she could never go back, back from the land of dreams.

18 September 1998

Clearing

Clear the clutter. When in doubt, throw it out!

This week has been challenging with lots of difficult and frustrating moments. I think all us have been affected in some way or another?

Decisions made have impacted on people’s lives and that obviously trickles down to all of us – I guess that most important consideration is what have you learned about you?

The Moon in Libra requires balance. Libra loves peace and harmony and is rather astute in their pursuit of goals.

I’ve learned a great deal from my Libran friends – qualities such as: resourcefulness, negotiation skills, discernment and loyalty. These are refreshing in this cut throat world we live in.

Librans love beautiful environments – they seem to gravitate toward serenity rather than choppy waters of uncertainty. When the Moon is in Libra these are some of the qualities we can all consider.

It’s a number nine day of resolution and conclusion. We’ve been through another numerology cycle (starting at one). It’s a good time to reflect and reject – what do you want to take with you into another nine days?

Clearing at this stage of the cycle can be cathartic. Not only that, what remains must be important to your progress.

A number nine day has an artistic feel – so be an artist use your creative talents. A great day for public performances. What you give out will come to you, so give your best – close the chapter tomorrow, you start new then.

Death arrives – yeah, so what? I am not afraid or perturbed – I feel at ease with the end. My solicitor rang last night it seems that everyone has agreed on the commission portions and we can proceed to exchange. So here’s hoping?

The World seduces me into the garland of plenty. Life is bountiful if you count your blessings.

The Chariot is a moving locomotive – taking me toward a new destination. Hop on board – the train is leaving the station.

I’ve spoken with so many people this week who have been in a crunch from the Pluto and Saturn battle star galactica. The fall out has affected many couples and or relationships and this has made people feel uneasy.

In most cases people have gone with the flow and rhythm of life – it’s a powerful beat – the rest are devastated by the fall out. I hope you are flowing nicely and not too discouraged by the lessons learned.

Peace, Love and Happiness,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

ON DAYS LIKE THESE

On days like these I like to wait
to open my eyes and hesitate
to laugh, to smile to lay in bed
to float and roam around my home
I dare not answer the telephone.

On days like these I like to search
and stare in wonder outside on perch
to sing, to cry to fly on high
a squirrel, a bird, a plane
a sign, I wish to remain.

Within my cosy bed I lie
to create in my head
how I love to be alone
On days like these I feel so prone

to linger a while without a care
to rise before noon I do not dare.
On days like these I contemplate
I ponder and wonder where my fate is
eclipsed within and like a flash
I sigh, I grin and with a dash
I flee with glee upon my knees
above, below and all around
on high in trees down down on the ground
my thoughts alive I blink in wonder just how
magnificent it would be
to enjoy and revel in the blessing of
moments in my life on days like these!

THE END

Self love

Care for your body. Self love and self acceptance are the ultimate acts of self care.

A number eight day portends success in business. Ambition stirs within us. It’s time for advancement. Look and act successful. Be an executive. Use good judgement. Do all your financial and legal work. Best day for signing leases or contracts. Success is already yours now!

Mercury is moving over the karmic north node – this alignment encourages us to think things through differently. Relationships are the key in this transit.

The Moon is in the seventh house of relationships and interaction with significant others. The Sun is in Aquarius – the eleventh house of friends and associations. You can see how this melting pot of karmic conversations can brew up nicely into a soul elixir.

Intuitively I knew that Death would be the first card out this morning. I guess even silently commanded its appearance in my morning spread. Bring on the Death card – put an end to this skulduggery.

The World is my oyster and its turning churning – pearls of wisdom appear as magical offerings from the esoteric shadows.

The Hermit is ever-present – watching, guiding – gently nudging me along the path, “watch your step, dear – keep on track and don’t deviate – you will be rewarded for your resilience and adaptability.

We are still navigating the muddy waters of negotiation between the two agents. Fortunately I am not longer connected emotionally. The vibe and excitement has been flushed from my body by the greed and unethical acts. Intuitively, I feel that the matter will proceed but the joy has diminished. Perhaps when the settlement takes place the rush of excitement will begin to surge until then disgust and disdain are my constant companions. For now all I can manage is a big sigh and an animated eye roll.

We’ve had rain in the territory last night. The garden has a tiny coating of dew and the paths are a grey tied dyed colour. I am grateful for the heavenly offering and hope that it is sufficient to keep the dam buoyant for our drinking water.

The Moon in Libra suggests legal matters. Maybe we can see this conveyance move to the next level. My brother asked me last night I’ve run the first agent and I said no, there is nothing I can say that will make me feel better – I’d rather practice self care and self acceptance.

Peace Love and Happiness,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

RAVEN’S SONG

This morning I saw a Raven on high.
As he flew by with a wink in his eye
He could see the lie
Deep within my soul
Hidden from the world
A moving story about a girl.

A girl with a memory
How she wishes that she could flee
Far above the trees
And soar with the Ravens
Almost touching the heavens.
To sit proudly
And bellow loudly a survivor’s tale
From a childhood lost
It has already cost, far too much.

This morning I heard a Raven’s song
And deep within my heart I did long
To set my spirit free
With all my heart and soul in it.
Above the clouds and life’s oppression
Without a care and little apprehension
To soar above all adversity
With the Raven on wing
And you and me
For the entire world to see!

The End
© 1999

Action

The journey to find your lost self begins with one step.

I’m fascinated by rhythm; rhythm of the day, the seasons and emotional rhythm. I cannot imagine my life without tapping into that rattle and hum and I can’t imagine what it would be like if I did not record my thoughts and feelings in my journal each day.

The constant flow of life intoxicates me with this beat – the narratives coiled within provide the sheet music and people are the actors. People everywhere – toddlers heading off on new adventures, people avoiding eye contact – stare – not stare – people scanning newspapers other encroaching on passers by with their penetrating voyeurism. People pushing boundaries and stepping into aura and personal space – push a little close and cop a free feel if they time it right.

The stage is crowded - the hum-drum is fever pitched exploded by the shrill of tantrums or lulled by the bliss of lovers whispering their secret dialogue inter-dispersed with eyelashes fluttering timely winks.

Even though we plan and plot – read and navigate our path – even though we integrate the learning from astrology and numerology – we seem to blithely traverse the unchartered corridors of the maze of life.

The impossible becomes possible – the ordinary seeps into the background of a life unlived.

Some people carry the weight of the world on their shoulders.

Some are so animated they light up the night sky with their smile and electrified aura – they whisk you away to imaginary lands on the winkle of their eye – they are fetching – enticing – summoning you to the wonderment of their breath.

It’s a number seven day; the journey within – it is a day that always reveals something – so be aware and not alarmed. Look within and receive the answers. Where will the next step take you? Where does your path lead? Is this your destination or another bus stop beckons on the highway to freedom?

My morning reading explores certain truths; Temperance the detached, philosophical approach. The Moon aligns with the desire to create and perform on the stage of life. And the Chariot stalled at the cross-roads – contemplating the next move.

My conveyance is stalled – the exchange of contacts has been put on hold while the real estate agents (two of them) lobbying for the share the commission. The current agent is being magnanimous however it is the one that we stepped away from wants his share for doing nought. Meanwhile the customer, my husband and me are left carrying the debt and our poor purchaser wants to move in urgently. We are disappointed that the first agent feels entitled to a share of the commission and continues to do everything in his power to hold up the sale.

Last night my husband and I agreed that we are prepared to pull out of the deal and put the property back on the rental market and try again later this year. We will vet all potential purchasers to make sure that they haven not had a conversation with any other agent.

I find this situation ghastly and yet fascinating in some macabre way. I moved to Coffs Harbour some yeas ago to seek solace and find Nirvana and now my exodus has been excruciating. As I release the outcome the scars begin to heal.

Love, Peace and Happiness,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

SIREN’S SONG

Bombarding birds swept, screeched and thrust themselves at the ship below. The seas tumultuous, no where to go. Captain tied to the mast, wax stuffed in their ears avoiding the imminent death of the Siren’s song.

Waves crashed the deck
Birds of prey flew into peck
at their bodies, their eyes, wanting them
to die, die, die!

Rowing blind past the rocks
holding on tight chained in their stocks
they worked so hard to avoid the inevitable
destruction, death and damnation.

The Death song surrounded them that day
Their strength, the courage that they displayed
Was true to their souls
for they would not grow old
as they passed into the bosom of the sea
remembered by you and by me
a victim, a hero of the chilling Siren’s Song.

THE END

Power

Own your own power – every storm brings a new beginning.

Sunrise, sunrise like magic in the skies I was up early this morning and the crimson glory of the skies took my breath away. I was in awe of the colours and the beauty. I thought this is the most perfect way to herald a new month!

Saturn and Pluto are encouraging us to detox our lives. I maintain however, that we must own our power. I’m not suggesting power over anyone – that trick never works Bullwinkle! What I am saying is to be strong and resolute in who you are and what you want in this life. This is not a dress rehearsal. In fact each day is opening night.

It is a number six day of commitment and responsibility; its time to take a personal inventory. Look at your home. Could it be more comfortable? Review your diet. Does it need adjusting?

It’s Monday – Moon Day and the Moon is in the detailed oriented sign of Virgo. Virgo represents daily rituals. It’s the first day of a new month. The slate has been wiped clean – start fresh with your commitment for a healthier you. Whatever aspects of your life that need detoxing the skies are supportive right now. So, thunder birds are go for a new you!

For me, my morning reading allies the truth of my being. Strength, death, hermit, the devil and the Moon - you know what they mean? I am subconsciously drawn to the rhythm of the skies and unconsciously connected to you.

It I was to choose an archetype today I would choose Harry Potter. You know that scene when Harry has been scraped by the teeth of the poisonous snake and the phoenix flies in and sheds a teardrop on his arm? Well that is me – I am about to receive the healing from the phoenix.

What archetype are you?

Love, Peace and Happiness,.

Julia Ashton-Sayers
TAMING THE TEMPEST

She stood upon the rock naked and in her glory
Screaming provocatively above the frenzy
of the raging sea before her
Nymphs swimming and thrashing upon horses,
clawing passionately
exposing the real story.

Birds on high, chaos below
nakedness swirling, no where to go.
The tempest was surreal
as they all reached out to feel
the wonders of their mystical connection
convulsing and going with the flow

Ultimately resisting temptation
tainted by their very existence
They could be rewarded for their persistence
To stay afloat, to thrive, to breathe,
for just another moment
wreaks unrequited passion
frozen in time there was no reason
to expect a hand reaching out to tame
the tempest, to calm the unreal sea.

Thoughts flashed through her min
exorcised her unleashed passion
suffering the exquisite pain
all that she could do was remain
upon the rock
demanding, revealing, heartfelt
taming the tempest – that is her story
perched atop the rock in all her glory.

Relaxation

Always do right. This will gratify some people and astonish the rest. Mark Twain

It is the morning after the Full Moon. Last night I danced under her glow relishing in the magic of the silver orb. I also made a solemn promise to myself to relinquish all of my bad habits around food choices. This morning my subconscious reflects that intent.

Death augurs the end of a phase. The Black Knight charges into my reading and demands letting go of the attitude and behaviours that no longer serve me. My toxic choices have been made from the darkness of my emotional realm. They cannot pollute the freshness of my future.

Now it is a new era in healthy choices and I will surely reconcile the truth (PS: I got on the scales and I’ve lost .7 of a kilo so that is inspirational too, isn’t it?)

The Wheel of Fortune blazes into my reading and admonishes my guilt – stripping away the remanets of a hedonistic existence – I am determined that the celebration will be based on the promise that food is medicine and longevity is the lure.

Judgement heralds the chapter of letting go and allowing love to guide me through the darkness of reality. It has been an intense period – the battle is nearly over – sign on the dotted line and the deal will be sealed – forever!

The Food rushes in and whistles, “You, over here – common this way! Take the high road to Utopia – a place of healing. Wise choices inevitably will yield wise outcomes. Travel light and you’ll be alright! The sun is shinning on a new way of life.

I do feel inspired by the results on the scales this morning. I’ve added fuel to the fire by putting away some new clothes from my favourite clothing store. Sure they fit and are comfortable but there is no room for excess weight to be layered in the garment. The focus and determination are cloaked in the inspiration that I will achieve my goal of weight loss and the most positive outcome will be a healthy body.

So, what is on the agenda today? Relaxation is the answer. I’m allowing myself to be lazy. It’s okay to “do” nothing. Although I prefer a combination of nothing and moderate exercise such as yoga and walking. I am also working on my e-zine articles for Jestacom (www.jestacom.biz)

February is looming and I must get the columns ready for publishing.

Yesterday was a busy number seven day and today, a number eight day suggests success in business. It is a good day to connect with the ambition within. Look and act successful. Be organised and reorganise. Success is mine now. I am powerful and prosperous. I go from success to success. I am the benevolent and loving direction of the Kingdom I’ve created.

The numerological energy of the day contradicts the intent of having a lazy Sunday doesn’t it? Well, I guess I will strive toward achieving both.

The Moon is still lingering in her creative Leo phase. It is a good time to invest some innovation into our projects and wallow in the ardour of the spectacle of this magnificent lunation.

Saturn and Pluto are still lingering in the background and the fall out from their heavenly battle will impact on us here in the Earth School. Forewarned is forearmed so what attitude or behaviour do you need to relinquish today?

Enjoy your Sunday and joyfully release the tension from your life – your way!

Love, Peace and Happiness,

Julia Ashton-Sayers
TREETOP SERENADE

Chilling wind
Unforgiving wind
Howling wind
Take away our sins.

The clouds and dismal skies disappeared today
And I sighed, okay!
Exquisite sunlight peeked through the branches
Life should not be so hard
I said out loud
As I saw a cloud
Float across the clear blue canvas.

Chilling wind
Unforgiving wind
Howling wind
Take away our sins.

Hope is but a glimmer of sunshine on a cloudy day
For every challenge and lesson we must pay.
With strength of spirit
And heads held high
Oh! How I wish I could fly – above adversity
Float up to the branches
And swim and bask in the glory
Glimmering, shimmering, screaming in delight, my story
Heart and soul full of optimism
In a treetop serenade

THE END
Sometime in 1999

Reflect

The beauty and the bounty of the day lie in the fullness of the Blue Moon. The Moon is at her grandest at 5:17pm 11 degrees Leo. She is in her flamboyant phase, shinning her magical beams upon us to remind the mere mortals here on earth of the power of love and the importance of creativity.

Sounds wonderful? Well, yes of course it is! However there is also a powerful tug of war between arch rivals, Saturn and Pluto shaping up in the ring. Saturn represents stability and Pluto insists upon evolution – metamorphosis. While this is their battle it is also a time to exorcise your demons and or bad habits and choose to whisk them away in a luminous finale.

Leo resides is the fifth house of love and creativity. The Moon is an ultra-feminine planet. This combination at the lunar phase which insists upon conclusion/resolution presents the perfect auspicious to bring to a climax all these aspects which are pertinent to you right now. Each facet will come to you with integrity of your unique situation.

Mark Twain offers, “Man was made at the end of the week’s work, when God was tired.” You may agree or disagree – I believe it is up to us to make our own mark. In saying that, I maintain that it is not our capabilities which make us who we are it are the choices we make that lead us to our destination.

The number seven personal day suggests that we journey within. Look within and receive the answers you are seeking. Take time to go within, be in touch with your inner wisdom. The colours for today are purple/violet and the jewell is amethyst.

The Empress gives birth to a new phase; a new direction. The labour is over and the freshness of a new chapter is intoxicating. It’s time to squat and connect with the earth – wait one moment longer in the embrace of Gaia. Are you prepared to wait? If so reflect on what is important to you!

The Lover’s wink knowingly. They are basking in the ardour of their love. The world exists outside their haven – no trespassers allowed!

The world is on offer – Venus touches the garland of plenty – step this way – tread carefully for you are walking on my dreams.

You are the star in your own blockbuster. Lights, camera and action – roll the film – no wait. How is your make up? Are you wearing the right colours? The script has been edited – do you know your lines? You’ve crafted each word perfectly from your thoughts, words and desires. You connect with the desires of the passionate actor within – step out from the wings and take your spot on centre stage. This will be the performance of your life. Wait. Just a minute – timing is everything – reflect just a moment – keep your eyes open – joy lives in small places and tiny movements. Success can be in the fluttering of the eyelids or the obtuse grimace of your pout.

Make sure that the choices you make will lead you in the direction of your dreams.

Love, Peace and Happiness,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

THE RED ENVELOPE

Today the mailman trudged through the snow to my door, at which time he thrust into the opening in my door a read envelope. Peeking excitedly into the curious little flap, I was aghast; a letter within and a feather from my friend.

As my eyes skipped over words of love and news from the Land Down Under, I began to feel and reel for the love and friendship I have received today. Tingling sensations vibrated down my body and soon I began to realize just how much I am missed and I began to enter into bliss.

I held the red envelope close to my heart for just a moment and I became aware of just how much she cared. My fingers gently slid over the feather I knew in an instant it was a gift from Spirit, taking my soul and making it anew. I sighed and smiled with delight as I wondered and pondered tonight – just how blessed I am, and I screamed – alright!

Today a red envelope was delivered to me. And now I laugh and dance with glee. I have received and now am sure that I am truly loved and celebrate that the postman had trudged to my door.

Sometime in 1999

Achievement

When you fish for love, bait you hook with your heart, not your brain.
Mark Twain

This working week ends with a number six day. It is a day to take your personal inventory. Look at your responsibilities. Any that needs taking care of? Do you owe anything? Now is the time to pay up. Stay home. Enjoy your family. Fill you day with music.

It would be nice to stay home, wouldn’t it? You know, to play hooky and hang out at home and enjoy the bliss of this Cancerian moon mist. While it would be a nice thought to do just that it is also important to remember that working supports our homes and havens. Well that is the motivator I embed on my daily rituals.

A number six day supports achievement – choose your dreams. You may be surprised where they lead you! My dream at the moment is to settle the conveyance of my property in Coffs Harbour. I want to bring an end to that chapter of my life. It is not as though I want to forget about Coffs Harbour entirely as I have many treasured memories that loiter in the forefront of my mind closely tied to this Harbour side town. No the closure is purely financially motivated. The sale of that property will fit nicely into the Pluto in Capricorn strategy.

Pluto in Capricorn highlights our financial dealings and business ventures. This transit is a period of consideration of how you conduct your finances and how your balance sheet does reflect your lifestyle choices. It is also a phase of reducing your debt exposure and to live within your earnings.

Pluto does not advocate that you live a Meagher existence just be prudent and mindful about your investments and financial ethics. For you if you build your business on quick sand (unethical practices) then you will find that the structure will not be sustainable. Ironically, the economic downturn aligned with the movement of Pluto in Capricorn.

Temperance is my guiding angel. She offers prudence and balance in all dealings. Her philosophical approach highlights my morning reading – stay tuned – you are about to embark upon a journey in pursuit of a vision. Justice augurs contracts and legal negotiations. Fairness and diplomacy are the desired outcomes. The Fool promises a new phase – a light – bright vivacious phase of accomplishment and freshness of heart and spirit.

It’s time to be considered in your thoughts – only the best and you will create the masterpiece of your dreams. We meet again will take you into the caverns of my soul – enjoy!

Love, Peace and Happiness,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

We Meet Again

Pounding hearts together again
I touched your heart, remember when?
We would beneath the oaks
Come together and thou doust float
Back in time across the sea
When I was you and you were me.

Hearts filled with passion of love anew
I’ve dreamt of this day when I would find you
We have come this way for love’s true story
Basking in the light of this tumultuous glory

Sunlight touching our nakedness unfolds
A raindrop trembling on a leaf so bold
Bodies quiver, shiver and anticipate
You come to me afore it’s too late.

Secrets of lives gone past
This time alone fleeting past
A wink, a blink and you are gone
An empty heart and off to roam.

We met before in time of war
You kissed me sweetly and left before
I cried and tried to push you from my mind
As I knew it was not our perfect time
We met then and would again
Connect once more and become true friends.

April 1999

Trust

Of all the animals’ man is the only one that is cruel. He is the only one that inflicts pain for the pleasure of doing it. Mark Twain

The Moon has returned home. She has entered the fourth house of home and family. This is natal phase and she lingers here while she is preparing for her “Crone phase”.

There is a full Moon in Leo on 30th January AEST and this moon phase will signify resolution/conclusion for creative projects.

Numerologically it is a number five day of changes and surprises. This is a good day to promote and advertise you. Look at another side of life – give something away. Sell something. You feel free today.

It’s also a good day to trust your decisions. March to the beat of your own heart. Here I am world, open and receive to all good, which I accept with joy and pleasure and gratitude.

There is a prominent Saturn and Pluto link in the skies at the moment. Saturn is renowned for breaking down the established order of things and Pluto represents transformation. This alignment will impact on us all – just like the Sun and Moon affects our personalities, identities and how we represent ourselves in the world.

This Saturn and Pluto alignment has played out in my conveyance for the sale of my Coffs Harbour property. Yesterday at the last minute – right before exchange of contracts a potential problem arose and I had to negotiate and facilitate the issue with a calm and reasoned demeanour. While I feeling annoyed and darned disappointed I knew I had to be reasonable and take a diplomatic approach rather than allow my aggravation with the situation creep in.

The High Priestess exemplifies wisdom and prudence in all negotiations. She knows that the outcome will be realised it just takes time and strategic planning. The Star is the beacon of hope and trust. She knows that all will be resolved at the perfect time. Death is the end. It is over – the door is closed and a new phase waits. The dawn is a spectacle and magic lurks in the golden beams of optimism.

Magic also lurks in my kitchen. My little witch, Grizelda swings on her broomstick to the beat of her drum. This is her story.

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Grizelda, the Kitchen Witch

High above the town she flies
On her broom high, high, higher
Overlooking the busy streets
Comings, goings – what a treat!

Everyone is off to work
‘Round the streets do not lurk
Work to be done
Busy busy everyone!

Exhausted, elated she returns
To gaze below and to yearn
She is a magic girl – what a whirl
Perched on high in my kitchen so bright
Eclipsed in her beauty of twilight

Her skirts of blue rise to show
An awesome and misty glow
She’s not good looking, that’s for sure
However, her eyes twinkle and that’s the lure
Overseas and back to shore
Across the lakes, rivers to my door
Her sense of fun is a joy to witness
Hair of straw writhing in bliss
Shrieking so loud compared to none
Griselda’s her name, remember everyone!

February 12, 1999