Julia's Journal March 2010 Archives

Accept your own beauty

You are beautiful no matter what your mind tells you. That is a fact. If you are aware of your own beauty and accept your own beauty, the opinions of others don’t affect you at all.

I often wonder what drives the beautiful elite to continually have surgery. If they are already beautiful then why aren’t they happy with themselves? I’m not opposed to a little maintenance or to have a little freshen but the journey under the knife can be fraught with danger. Well any surgery can be dangerous for that matter.

At what point do we come to realise that we are beautiful enough? How much money does it take for feel comfortable in our own skin? Or is the full stop on the body alterations comes when then the sentence is out of adjectives. Just a thought.

I guess it is like starving yourself for a dress size. I can’t imagine myself doing that. In fact I’m more like a child on a long car trip, “are we there yet?” on the diet reduction merry-go-round.

I love food. Actually I am a self-confessed hedonist. In that view I’ve based my weight loss goal on the focus for a healthy body and a healthy mind. The pursuit of a healthy lifestyle is purely focused around my relationship with food. Rather than give up or do without I’ve changed my perception of food.

So, instead of being a slave to sugary I eat with intention. Sometimes I break my own rules about eating the right fuel which reminds me that yes I am human. I accept responsibility and re-evaluate my situation and forgive myself and my transgressions. And then I move on with conviction toward my goal of a healthy body.

Primarily, my view is medicine. What I eat makes me feel good, nourishes my body and gives me the right energy to push the synapses along the healthy highways – pushes my body for one more exercise and lifts my soul to an enlightened Nirvana. Well that’s the theory.

Athena cuts through the crap. She warns that words mean nothing without action. Step fooling you – the scales don’t lie – step up and be counted or perish in a pool of lies. Judgement keeps the cycle of metamorphosis in play – don’t delay as your health is a priority – today and everyday. The Moon offers cycles and signs to plant your seeds and motivate your behind. She is in Aries today so don’t dawdle – get up and play!

It’s a number six day – take responsibility for what you do – there are more excuses than enthusiasm in your stew of broken promises to you.

Love, Peace and Happiness,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

You are the force that is life!

You are alive – you are the power of life. You are the force that is life, but because you are able to think at the level of the mind, you forget what you really area.

Happy St. Patricks Day!

The Leprechauns are running wild today. There is magic and mischief in the air. It’s one of my friends birthday today – so happy birthday Unichaun. This friend is creative and mystical and she has a twinkle in her big blue eyes that spells out magic loud and clear. I wish her all of the luck and magic of the leprechauns today and always.

The Moon is in Aries and you are reminded of the force within. It’s a bit like Obi Won reminding Luke Skywalker to use the force. Instead I am reminding you that you are the force and the creator of your life so soak up this Moon and get crackin’.

It’s a number five day which primarily means changes. The numerological movement suggests that the foundations built yesterday will be tested in a five day. I’m not saying destroyed or overwhelmed just given a little nudge to check for resilience. Say, you’ve declared that you are living in a diet zone then the conviction will be tested on a five day. Hang tough and don’t let the muffin take control of your life.

The Emperor rises above all of the promises of magic and reminds us to get real. Own your habits and excuses – labels are tokens of resistance. You are not just, “a – whatever”. You are a force of nature and are unstoppable in your pursuit of the best life.

Judgement cautions us to be discerning about decisions that could impact on our lives for years to come. Be aware that the choice you make today will create the future.

The Wheel of Fortune spins in with destiny and fate at the helm. You turn the wheel and hold your breath – prizes and won and lost on this week and it is all up to the force to stop at the right notch.

These subconscious and numerological cycles influence our lives to a degree. Sure our story board draws a path of least resistance. However, ultimately it is up to us and our gift of free will that governs our daily lives.

On that note: have a magical St. Patrick’s Day and happy birthday Meggsie.

Love, Peace, Magic and Joy,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

You can live in heaven right now!

You can live in heaven right now; you don’t have to wait to die! If you take responsibility for your own life, for your own actions, then your future is in your hands, and you can live in heaven while your body is alive!

The New Moon in Pisces offers a nutritious and fertile soil to plant the seeds for future orchards. A very close and special friend of mind has just brought a property. This purchase is one of her dreams. She is now planting fruit and olive trees for her orchard. This is her vision.

To protect this dream and the future crops she is considering pests and the weather condition and how that will impact on her orchard. So my suggestion to you is to plant your seeds but consider future weather conditions and pests – plant with a positive intention but embed strategies for protection for your wishes. I hope that all of your harvests will be abundant and healthy.

The Moon moves into the go-getter sign of Aries late this afternoon. This transition will shake, rattle and roll us out of the Neptunian phase. We have languished long enough in the Pisces mist and now the Arian moon phase will encourage us to move out booties and prepare us for the month ahead. The Sun will move into Aries in five days time.

A number four day is prime for laying foundations for the future. Four is stable and solid. Build a bridge to a new location the skies are supportive for moving on.

The High Priestess is wise to the harsh lessons and dark nights of the soul. She has traversed the bleak canyons of Hades and fought the fires of hell. Sure her innocence has been scorched but she is not cynical or lost her girlish ardour. What can I learn from her? It too shall pass enters my thoughts and consumes my mind. I am stronger than I gave myself credit for – I am a survivor that is for certain. Work hard and I will accomplish my goals. Hold my ideals close to my chest and allow them to infiltrate into the beat of my heart.

The Star is poised for a moment in the spotlight. Her vision has battled with the spites – she has won. She stands proudly and is resolute and shy – do not underestimate her resilience. She will not be trampled again.

Just is a lady. Her sword points toward heaven. The scales are balanced in front of her and she knows right from wrong. She has fought the good fight. She has overcome fear and inertia and her heart beats loud and strong as she slices away the layers of trepidation.

I have a lot in common with these three Goddesses of the Major Arcana. Their journey has resembled mine in some respects. I’ve grown and learned harsh lessons and overcome painful experiences – but haven’t we all? Some of these lessons I’ve created and others I’ve asked for. Why? Well because I wanted to grow, stretch and push myself into foreign encounters and rise above adversity. Allow the metamorphosis I’ve signed on for to eventuate and take me to places where I thought I could never go. It is through these challenges that I’ve embraced the darkness that lurks deep within the human soul.

The New Moon encourages me to stretch a little further – push the boundaries of my human-ness. Where to from here I ask once again as I pull out the map and scan a new horizon.

My theory is based on the premise that it is okay to make mistakes. I give myself permission to put my toe in the stream, paddle and possibly wade in a little further. If it is a clean and comfortable lagoon I drift into a cave and swim a little longer.

If the lake is toxic and I can’t stand the smell then I dry myself off and sit on the nearest rock – I sun myself and pull out the map, grab my compass and I am off again.

I want to close this entry today with a Walt Disney theme song, “when you wish upon a star your dreams come true!” Hey tinker bell – over here!

Love, Peace and Magic,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

You are only responsible for your half of the relationship

There are two halves in every relationship but you are only responsible for your half; it is not up to you to control the other half, respect the other half and there is and there is always going to be peace in that relationship.

Mercury and Uranus combine for an electrifying day. It’s a number three day so there is a lot of communication on the line. Ideas, concepts and conversations combine with short journeys taking us to the limit of our intellectual pursuits. Stretch yourself just a little and you won’t be sorry.

The Sun and Moon in Pisces make this an exquisitely emotional day – the dreamy love song is about to be build to an exciting crescendo.

Yesterday I was blessed out of my mind. Roger and I went to the National Gallery of Australia for a tour of the Masterpieces from Paris. After the guided tour we had high tea in the sculpture garden. As the fog rolled in over the pond champagne corks popped and we dined on French pastries. What a sensational Piscean afternoon strolling around the Masterpieces from the Musee d’Orsay. What an extraordinary experience – prices less!

Temperance takes us from the ordinary to the sublime. Explore the wandering minstrel within. The Fool is up for the new horizons – wait for me – you know I can’t run that fast! Pack your rucksack and let’s begin. There is no time to waste. The Hermit ushers in caution and wisdom – don’t travel without your compass and don’t wander to far from home. Take enough sustenance for the entire tripe. Look after yourself and you will return to the lingering shadows of your mind, enlightened by the journey.

It’s a Monday – Moon Day; the eve of the New Moon in Pisces. Write, create, and outline your dreams, ready for the rich fertile pasture of tomorrow land.

Dare to dream the future holds the promise of your hopes and wishes.

Love, Peace and Happiness,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Love is all around you!

You search for love outside yourself when love is all around you. Love is everywhere, but you need to have eyes to see.

The Moon and Sun are in dreamy Pisces. It’s Sunday which is great for a move, gallery, and romantic interlude or just taking a stroll around the neighbourhood.

The Pisces moon makes a harmonious link to Pluto in Capricorn so some day dream believing about career path or vocation would certainly set the wheels of manifestation in motion.

Later on today the Moon meets Mercury for a stop and learn. And the chatter on the line says that there is movement in the synapses.

These criteria are boasting tiny steps in the process of visualisation. This is the time to till the soil. The New Moon will come up on Tuesday morning which will be like the most fertile time to plant those seeds.

One word of caution though (well perhaps two) is that you need to be specific about your seeds. Instead of asking, I want a good job that will pay the bills, describe the job – how does it look and feel – how do you feel? Are you happy going to work everyday? Do you feel validated? Are you in synch with your team? How much money do you want to earn (realistically speaking)?

Another word of caution is, be careful what you wish for. Phrases like, I bet I get this – or I couldn’t get that… will only create those situations and ultimately all you are doing is creating a self-fulfilling prophecy. Sounds familiar?

The fresh ingredients and the right temperature will bake the soufflé of our dreams.

An 11/2 day promotes a public and private feel. Agreements and contracts are in line with the energy of this masterful day. Eleven is a master number so there may be lessons to be learned but isn’t there always? Our life is a continuum of learning in this earth school. Actually, I’ve heard many people say that they got their degree from the school of hard knocks. To be honest, it shows too!

The World heralds the end of a cycle. The fruit is ripe and hanging on the vine ready for the plucking. This card exudes abundance and feeling nurtured within the garland of plenty.

The Lovers wink and nod because they know what is really going on. Love, curiosity, communication and imagination are potent ingredients for a smoozy day in the Neptunian haze.

At the Wheel of Fortune we encounter the three goddesses of Fate, who the Greeks called the Moirai. In myth, the Moirai were the daughters of Mother Night, conceived without a father. The three fates weave the thread of a human life in the secret darkness of their cave, and their work could not be undone by any god, not even great Zeus. Once the destiny of an individual was woven, it was irrevocable, and could not be altered; ad the length of life and the time of deal were part and parcel of the share which the Moirai allotted.

On a divinatory level, the Wheel of Fortune augurs a sudden change of fortune. This may be ‘good’ or ‘bad’ but whichever the Wheel turns it brings growth and a new phase of life.

The stage is set for some romance, relaxation and rejuvenation; the three ‘R’s of a bountiful and joyous life. I’m committed to those three concepts. I relish in the magic and mayhem they create.

I have a massage booked for this morning. And then the gallery for a Parisian sojourn. What about you? What are your plans? How do you intend to capture the Piscean energy of the day? Immerse yourself in the romantic mist, even if you don’t have a partner bask in the energy with a candle lit bath or a coffee date with your best mate. Keep the conversation light and bright. Talk about you wishes and what you want for your next phase.

Don’t tell me you are doing house work or domestic drudgery – I just couldn’t bear it on a day like today!

Peace, Love and Joy,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Create a new agreement based on love and respect

Take the responsibility to make new agreements with those you love. If an agreement doesn’t work, change that agreement and create a new one! Use your imagination to explore possibilities.

The cycle ends with a number ten and instantly begins with a number one. Yes, it’s a 10/1 day! Its time to close the chapter on what has been happening over the past nine days and look for a new hook to start the next chapter.

The Moon is in Aquarius and friends and associations are highlighted today. A trek through the eleventh house is a fun ride.

Coincidently, the Empress gives birth to a new phase. The labour is over and its time to nurture the babe. The world can be an unfriendly place but you are safe and warm with me. Nurture the love within yourself and you will radiate that love out into the world.

The great benefactor, Jupiter is the ruler of the wheel of fortune. It is a time of growth and expansion and it has the fair ground appeal. The wheel turns in your favour and you have a ticket to ride. Buckle up and hold on – get ready for the ride of your life!

The Lovers are synchronous. They are in tune, in love and in the moment. The world outside is irrelevant to their special tune. The notes are played on their exquisite instrument – the intent is bliss as they return to their Utopian room.

The scene is set for another beautiful weekend. The sun is beaming through my window. The facets on the crystals capture the sunlight and sprinkle rainbows dancing for my delight.

It’s Saturday and a time for work and rest. I’ve slept in this morning but I don’t care. I’ve honoured my need to relax and enjoy the morning without time demands and domestic expectations.

We are planning a quiet weekend. What about you? The energies of the day are mixing a cocktail of work, rest and play and I step up to drink the ambrosia from the goblet of abundance.

Focus for the desire of a blissful interlude is priority number one. I choose to disregard the world outside my sanctuary.

Sounds wonderful? Well, I’m off to do the washing. What about you?

Love, Peace and Happiness,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Respect each others dream

In a relationship there are two dreamers with two different dreams. You need to accept the differences that exist between two dreamers; you need to respect each others dream.

It’s a 333 day when communication and the Angels surround us with a more prominent focus on Angelic guidance. This is probably a good thing as the propensity to speak your truth is rife.

Speaking your truth with positive intention is highly regarded. Why not? It’s seems that everyone else has an opinion – don’t they? What if your truth collides with another person’s dream? What if we shatter another person’s dream with our comments?

We all have our dreams – we all have the right to dream so allow the dream to take you want to be. And if you meet another dreamer along the way then nod and wish them well.

The Hierophant is the wise counsellor. His dream is primarily as the healer. He suggests, “Healer; heal thyself. His wisdom is borne of pain. His love for humanity fulfils him.

The Wheel of Fortune takes the dream into the world. Lights; camera and action we are in the spot light and living our truth tonight. The benefactor adds momentum and the stage are set for our dreams to come true.

The Moon glimmers and transits each sign her with lunar magic. She is high in the sky and fading into a dark moon phase right now. She speaks to me of loyalty and truth – recommending that I only take the most trusted and respectful confidantes with me on my journey.

The dream is real – you know that? The stage is set. Live your truth and don’t forget that this is the play of a lifetime.

The ebb and flow of my life takes me from one lesson to another. I’ve learned to meander with the challenges, grieve the lessons and release the pain when it is all done.

The Pisces Sun is a powerful resource – the poetic sonnet of love, ambition and disillusionment, loss and grief play a sorrowful tune in my heart.

After the death there is a rebirth. In this infant phase I feel the optimism surge within my soul. Now where was that treaty?

Love, Peace and Happiness,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Forgive others

Forgiveness is the only way to heal your emotional wounds. Forgive those who hurt you no matter what they’ve done because you don’t want to hurt yourself every time you remember what they did. When you can touch a wound and it doesn’t hurt, then you know you have truly forgiven.

This is an interesting concept and fits in nicely with the Aquarian moon. Aquarius rules the eleventh house of friends and associations. Aquarius is also linked to humanitarian issues and the good of all. As you forgive you begin to heal. Allow the healing to begin.

Mars turns direct in Leo today – whew! Thank goodness! It’s been a tough retrograde over the past few months. As I said to a friend last night, this phase has been like walking in wet cement – you may stall for while and the cement sets and you are stuck and you end up with cement shoes.

Now it is time to crack the cement shoes and put on the roller skates. The benefit of this retrograde cycle creates an opportunity to reflect and consider our next stage.

Mars is now direct in my tenth house of career and public recognition. So it is full steam ahead on that path – woo hoo!

It’s a number eight day of balance and harmony. Let’s throw a little achievement in there too. It’s a day when you become the executive in your world. It is a good time to consider what you have done and contemplate your next move.

Strength offers the courage to overcome the fear of change. The unknown beckons and we are concerned if we are going to have a good time?

Judgement is letting go of the pain that holds us back. Ouch! Release the past and you will be the creator of your future.

The Wheel of Fortune heralds a phase bursting with richness and abundance. The music chimes and the wheel moves forward – all aboard!

The Emperor takes pride in his decisions. It’s a positive and assertive role you must take to climb to the top. You are nearly at the summit and the air is much clearer up there.

I’ve met many people who wallow in the pain of the past. I am a little guilty of that too at times. The wounds run deep and are painful however it is best to forgive yourself and the events that have kept your trapped in a negative dialogue. Re-write your script for the affirmations that will take you into a confident and contented realm.

Love, Peace and Happiness,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Love has no obligations or expectations

When you love, whatever you do is because you want to do it. It becomes a pleasure; it’s like a game, and you have fun with it. When you love, you don’t expect something to happen, whatever happens is okay, and hardly anything disappoints you.

The Moon in Capricorn continues down the career path. A number seven day suggests inner reflection and guidance. I am seduced by the subtle energies of the day and feel that I have an escape plan at last.

Do you know how soul destroying it is to be in the wrong place with the wrong people? You feel lost, alone and abandoned by the swirling tide of torment. The tide shifts and you can hold your head above water long enough to see land and your pull yourself up on to the sand. I’m about to step on to the sand.

The Hierophant lingers in the cave of wisdom. His journey into the dark night of the soul has been a treacherous one. His life has been saved – for now. He seeks answers of a philosophical kind and his degree comes from the School of Hard Knocks. He is about to graduate.

The Hanged Man cautions – timing is everything child, don’t make haste – be careful of your next move it has to sit right with the next phase of the plan.

Judgement is shedding; relinquishing the cloak of yester-year. The time has come to leave the sadness and disillusionment of the past behind. The past has served it purpose. You are free and that is all that matters. Leave the nightmare – now!

Being in the wrong relationship or wrong job has such painful repercussions. It’s painful – sure but it is also a steep learning curve. We try so hard to make each other fit the expectations of the role or the reflection of who we desire. This cycle of violence erodes our self esteem and confidence; eventually leaving us with a damaged impression of who we once were.

How do we find the courage to move on and find the perfect fit? We seek solace and counsel with friendships and sometimes with unhealthy habits of denial. Loving ourselves enough to break the cycle is the greatest gift we can give ourselves - once the cycle is broken look to your heart, soul and passion for the new direction of your evolution. It’s the only way out!

Love, Peace and Happiness,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

To begin a great relationship – know what you want.

Know what the needs of your body are, what the need of your mind is, and what fits well with you. There are millions of men and women, and some will make a good match for you and others won’t. The two of you only need to be a key in the lock – a match that works.

A day of commitment and responsibility chimes with a number six day. It’s back to work and the Moon in Capricorn supports a business focus. The long weekend in Canberra has been a healing interlude but now we must return to the workplace for career satisfaction and pay for the lifestyle we’ve created.

Last week we had settlement on our Coffs Harbour property and the debt has been reduced. This is the way of Pluto in Capricorn – don’t carry the burden of lots of debt – reduce your exposure and maintain the status quo – don’t overspend and don’t over-commit.

Saturn and Venus make for unlikely bedfellows. Saturn is serious and Venus – well, she’s not! Venus is all about love and money and Saturn is all about restriction – get the drift? So this could play out in a myriad of ways – the alignment of these two planets will express themselves in a unique way in our lives.

The major arcana reading take the individualistic route too. When I shuffle in the morning I do so with the intention of the storyboard for the day. The cards are representations of the potential players for the day ahead; that is why I don’t give a person interpretation.

The Hermit ushers caution into our lives – watch your step with work and health matters. The World announces that it is the end of a cycle – the ripe fruit is on the vine ready for the picking! The harvest is rich with experiences and lessons – careful you don’t prick your finger though. The Tower is a fortress of the essential you – storms come and then they pass – why do we seek another’s point of view especially when we know the route to happiness at last. The Star has lived her truth. She is transparent, naked and vulnerable – she stands for integrity and discernment – the darker side of life does not interest her at all.

Relationships come and go. Our lives are a passing parade of people. The heart song we create reflects the notes of the tune we harmonise with the intricate sequence of events. Find the symphony and you will attract the most exquisite orchestra.

Peace, Love and Happiness,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

There is wisdom in accepting what you are

It is difficult to be what you are not. Being what you are doesn’t require any effort. When you become wise, you accept yourself the way you are, and the complete acceptance of yourself becomes the complete acceptance of everyone else.

It is a number five day – a day of changes. Rain has come to the Territory – water is splashing off rooves and into the gutters. The maple outside my window is dancing in dew-laden glory. She carries the silvery shawl of nature’s haberdashery.

I pulled back the blinds and stood in awe of the constant flow celebrating the rich liquid blessing. I know it rained last night – storms and showers lashed the land around my home. The excitement of the skies perpetuated a wondrous flow of magic and cleansing throughout my soul.

The Lovers are intoxicated with each other’s stare – the world is a million miles away and they don’t care.

The wounded healer hides in his cave and shuns the world until he is brave enough to emerge – renewed and wise.

The High Priestess knows all about the dark side of life. After all she’s been to hell and back. Sitting serenely on her throne she reveals her story; her secrets are published in the journals of torment; her courage and lessons – no secret.

The Emperor is a powerful force. He is the King of Gods – of course. Don’t be afraid to face your nemesis – they are only figments of your fear – smash them into little pieces, dear!

The rain brings a renewed perspective – fresh, vibrant and alive. I am not concerned for my change in direction comes with intention and purpose. I am alive and vibrant – determined to live each day with a zest of peace and harmony. What about you?

Love, Peace and Happiness,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

To master love, you have to practice love

The art of relationship is a whole mastery, and the only way to reach mastery is with practice. To master a relationship is, therefore, about action; it is not about attaining knowledge.

The philosopher within emerges in the Sadge moon. Venus has moved into Aries and the romantics are bound for a journey from dreams and sonnets (Pisces) to action baby (Aries).

The Sun swirls in the Neptunian dream space (Pisces) and is Mercury still holding hands in the poetic Piscean playbook. There are a lot of ‘woulds’ and ‘coulds’ in our sentences right now however the tense will shift into action verbs when the Sun moves over into Aries later on in this month.

It’s Sunday morning and mid-way through a long weekend. I am enjoying this time in my home and with my family. Tonight we are having friends over to dinner. The rest and the ambience are superb – I am able to focus and float in a creative and metaphysical state – priceless.

The Wheel of Fortune reminds me of the beneficial ‘now’. I am swept up in the force of creation. What you think you create. The expansion of my mind elicits the possibilities of a limitless Universe. I am free to create the magic and direction of the wheel.

The Star shines brightly in my current phase. She is magnificent and offers a rare insight into a specific facet of my personality which has been hidden for eons. Stand proud in the face of adversity – you deserve the best – the past is a memory – there is only the exquisiteness of the moment.

The Hanged Man whispers, “its coming, don’t be afraid to dream the impossible dream. Life is a dream and you are merely an actor playing role. Here’s your script. You have a choice. You can change the ending.”

Script edit: cross out – new sentence, “it all began in a dream.”

The Hierophant cautions prudence and patience – “Oh pooh, not more patience!”

“Yes my child, the change is near – savour the magnificent memories along the way – rest your weary soul and prepare for the journey into the unknown.”

The clock ticks loud and deliberate – its’ time to get up and participate in the creation of the dream.

Love, Peace and Happiness,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Love is unconditional

In love there are no conditions; you love for no reason, with my justification. You are free to be what you are, and you allow others to be what they are.

The Moon in Sadge offers a positive force to move forward. The philosophical Sadge casts his arrows wide – his mind expands with the big picture of life.

The Sun is in Pisces so there is a nice Jupiterean flow between these two cousins. Both Pisces and Sadge are ruled by the big benefactor and therefore the chance for optimism is strong.

The Sun beams with golden allure. Apollo the Sun God offers the banquet of food, good music and good times. It is the weekend after all, isn’t it?

The Tower represents our values – our beliefs which encompass our essential truth. The attack comes from others – the lightning bolts out of the blue.

Judgement is the end of a phase – a letting go – shedding what is no longer of use. I must be reborn with a new point of view – there is no where else to go! I can’t keep going down this same dark avenue.

The Chariot rushes in and sounds the horn. All aboard! Hold on. Your life is about to take an interesting turn and you will have a choice – a new direction or two.

It’s a number three day of communication, short journeys and surprise events. It’s day to get out into the community and enjoy the connections with friends, siblings and neighbours. I love the rattle and hum of the number three – fun and laughter are usually top of the pops.

I have so much to be grateful for in my life – I am blessed with the love of family, golden friends and amazing opportunities. I am truly blessed! My life is a rich pallet of colours that blend perfectly to bring out the brilliance of my experiences.

I have learned many lessons since my arrival in the ACT. This week my Coffs Harbour property settled and that is an end of an era. This chapter closes with a sigh of relief. Now I sit poised with my hands clasped in anticipation for the next exciting phase of my life.

NB: Today I read an article while having coffee at my favourite weekend hub. The story was about Lara Bingle and how she does not deserve to be humiliated. I agree but wish to extend to the global village and shout out loud, “no one deserves to be humiliated!”

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Forgive yourself

The Sun a Moon are in a supportive aspect. The Sun is in dreamy, romantic and imaginative sign of Pisces. The Moon is in fellow water sign, Scorpio. This watery trine between two emotional mates can facilitate an excavation into the motivations between our heads and our hearts. For me it is a moment to be gentle with myself and to contemplate the act of forgiveness.

The supreme act of forgiveness is when we can forgive ourselves for all of the wounds we’ve created in our own lives. Forgiveness is an act of self-love. When you forgive yourself, self acceptance begins and self love grows. Let’s say I’m a work in progress – but still have a long way to go!

The Wheel of Fortune promises a beneficial cycle of love and golden opportunities. Love makes the world go around and peace is the soul elixir. I feel extremely fortunate in my personal relationships and especially in my marriage. My personal life chimes like a Ferris wheel in full tilt roaring out messages of love and respect.

The Tower is representative of the lightning bolts out of the blue – the arrows, spears and slights of the unsuspecting foes. Ironically, the Scorpio Moon brings them out of the woodwork and the point darts wound my fragile soul.

The Devil represents oppression and fear. I take responsibility for my role in this toxic cycle of abuse. Why do I allow it? When can I free myself from the chains of oppression? Do I have the strength to toss off the shackles of pain and regret? I don’t know and that’s the truth.

The Fool promises a new horizon. I crave his enthusiasm and endurance. I beg for his vitality and the wonder of his imagination and vibrancy. Rescue me from the darkness of my despair. Can I tag along? Can I join you in each and every step of the way? Please don’t leave me alone to perish in the blackness of my disappointment.

When you pick up a rock make sure you are prepared to face what is lurking underneath. Before you turn it over ask yourself, “Do I really want to know what is clinging to the underbelly of my curiosity? Today has the potential for enlightenment and healing. Bask in the energies of the Sun and Moon as they hold hands a soar across the sky.

Love, Peace and Happiness,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Become a servant for love and truth

Speaking of your truth today holds the cauldron of truth bubbling away with the force of Mercury and Pluto. This alignment may cause some disruption or eruptions in your relationships.

The Moon is in the sign of the detective – Scorpio – always searching for the truth – working hard on uncovering the tiny details – picking up rocks and stones and turning them over – yes even poking into places that are best left alone <blush>. That’s the way of the Scorpio – believe me – I knot this to be true. The sagest advice I can offer on a day like today is to thine self be true!

The Hanged Man encourages us to go with the flow – oh darn it – I’m so over that! Let’s blow a little wind into those sails and set the navigator for a new horizon.

The Empress smiles a quiet confident smile – she has a secret. Come on give it up. We’ll coax her for a while – ah – nope you’ll just have to wait and be patient for a moment longer.

Death strides into my morning spread – you know you want this; you know you need this – come on get ready for the end of the old ways and embrace the new – its just for you! Be bold. Be courageous. Drop the ways that have kept you imprisoned for too long.

The Hierophant emerges from the cave. All good things come to those who wait. Be patient. Be prudent. You must be respectful and loving.

I can sense that situations are changing in my heart. I am in the centre and the gravity that pulls me toward a new place is strong. Mars is still retrograde but the shift is swirling around taking me into the jet stream.

The desire to shed the unwanted kilos is strong. A visit with my dietician and a meal plan with portions is in my grasp. I have the map – the ingredients for success. Now all I need is the will and the power to maintain the momentum and lust toward my healthy, balanced, loving self. I will achieve. I will stick to the plan. I have a partner who is committed and strong. I am fortunate and blessed. I am a servant of love and truth.

Love is what makes you happy, and if you become a service of love and your partner becomes the servant of love, the day will come when you can be with your partner with no guilt and no blame, no anger and no sadness.

Love, Peace and Joy,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Miracles happen when you forgive

A number nine day promises empowerment and resolution. It’s time to draw a line under a nine day cycle. Lesson learned and promises made over the past week and a half are draw into resounding conclusion. I know that I’ve learned a great deal about myself and others during this turbulent time. But am I willing to forgive?

The High Priestess is calm and wise in her demeanour. She knows that she has been through the worst of times – now for the best.

The Fool bursts with enthusiasm and raw excitement. Which way will I go? The new highway holds the most promises and I am ready to take the express route.

The Empress is calm in her resolve for new beginnings. A show of calm discrimination resides behind the labour pains. I am ready to give birth to a new phase – yes I am!

How do I begin? I must forgive those who are my enemies or silent foes. Don Miguel Ruiz reminds us that, “You are born with the capacity to forgive, but you learn the opposite behaviour. You learn not to forgive, you practice not to forgive. When you learn to let go of your pride and ask for forgiveness, miracles start to happen in your life.

All the miracles to take you on a new and brilliant path!

Love, Peace and Happiness,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

You have the power to create

The Moon in Libra brings balance and harmony to our emotions and socialisation. We are social beings who love to create.

It’s a number eight day of achievement and rich positive experiences. It’s also a day to set a reasonable agenda and engage positively in the outcome.

Mercury moves into Pisces today. So there seems to be a nice dreamy and positive flow. What do you want to change about your life? Step up to the easel and pain the landscape of your dreams.

Prometheus reminds me of the sacrifices I’ve made. He is fair and just and willing to be the martyr for our discontent.

The Wheel of Fortune rolls in and grabs our attention. Step right this way – enjoy the ride of your life.

The Fool embraces fresh perspectives and new experiences so don’t linger any longer in the sludge of disillusionment. Scrape off the mud and slush and move on!

Your power is so strong that whatever you believe comes true. You are the way you are because that is what you believe about yourself. You whole reality – everything you believe – is your creation.

Love, Peace and Joy,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Let your heart speak

Over the next 48 days we will the Mastery of Love created by Don Miguel Ruiz and his Toltec Wisdom: http://www.miguelruiz.com/ please join me on this incredible journey.

The Full Moon in Virgo and the Sun in Pisces are the cosmic flavour today. Virgo is details and specifics and Pisces is the Big Picture and random flashes of inspiration. No wonder we feel a little bipolar?

Speaking of imagination in full flight, I had a phone call from my friend and co-writer, TB Jackson yesterday. We spoke on the phone for ages about previous creative collaborations (October Wind, The Baker Flood, Winds of Change and the Trojans of Time: http://jestacom.biz/pdma/ ).

Our artistic journey has been prolific and even though we have had a hiatus we are still able to pick up the creative thread and weave plots and synopsis into our conversations. Sure our lives have become work oriented taking on jobs to pay the mortgage and feed the family (Virgo) however our dreams and visions linger in the Neptunian vistas of our imagination (Pisces).

The Wheel of Fortune heralds a change for the better. Jupiter and the Sun clink champagne glasses filled with celestial ambrosia. It’s a beneficial phase for those who dare to drink the cosmic elixir.

The High Priestess is grateful for her experiences and is proud of her scars; life as been cruel and sometimes unjust. The scars reveal the journey but we don’t have to them on display all of the time.

Judgement augurs choice – the timing is perfect for letting go of the unwanted and unnecessary. I am raw from the dispersions cast upon my soul and I shall overcome the torment to be reborn.

Life can be a struggle. It can take on the analogy of the mouse wheel. Round and round we go – we continuously race on the wheel with no real progress. Exhaustion and disappointment take us out of the race – a perfect time to contemplate.

The intensity of the Full Moon bursts into our psyche exploding the truth and shattering denial. What is really important to your right now? Relinquish the superfluous and shed the layers of lies that keep you trapped in the past. The truth will set you free – do you know where you are going? You know where you’ve been? You know where you want to go – oh crikey watch that tree!

A gentle breeze pushes my wind chimes and rattles a deep melodic Gregorian ding, dang dong. The sounds are distracting and purposeful – I am captivated again. Does that mean we can become easily distracted or does it mean we are captivated by the sounds a new direction.

Speak from your heart. The heart is in direct communication with the human soul, and when the heart speaks, even with resistance of the head, something inside your changes. Your heart opens another heart and true love is possible.

Love, Peace and Joy,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Dreams

Think big! There are unseen forces ready to support your dreams.

A number six day alludes to a period of adjustment. Review your responsibilities. Any that needs taking care of? Are you sticking your nose into other people’s business? Do you owe anything? Now is a time to pay up! Stay at home and enjoy your family. My home is a peaceful haven.

The Moon moves into detail oriented Virgo today. We are at the eve of the full moon (tomorrow morning 3:37am AEST – 10 degrees Virgo). And it is a therefore a good time to consider your responsibilities – to yourself – to others – how is your commitment to your daily routines and rituals. Are you staying on track with your goals regarding health and daily work activities? Only you can decide and only you can bring a conclusion to negative behaviour patterns and wavering from your vision.

The Pisces Sun phase encourages us to dream. Sweet dreams, Baby – how long must I dream? Well, I guess it is all about the “dreaming”. In my view there is only a delicate drawbridge between dreams and reality. So far as I’ve experienced dreams can be so painful that we may opt for the River of Denial. Wherever you are in this analogy then you should take responsibility for your location. The Full Moon may offer a crisis in confidence or reflect a scenario highlighting a significant theme. Don’t adjust the channel – just fine tune your motivation.

The High Priestess has the compass ready. She will navigate us out of the pit of despair. The Hierophant is shrewd and rational. He laments, “Why do you care?” The Hanged Man gazes upward offering salvation and a Neptunian perspective. Temperance is the guiding light that commands us to rise above our current state – if we dare!

Mars is still retrograde and we are feeling the angst of a backward slide. Plans, projects, ideas and goals seem to be lost or scattered on the stairs. Two steps forward and one back are not considered progress by any means. We must be patient a little while longer as the warrior shall return in just a little over a week.

Prepare to strap on the roller skates and bounce with a different beat. March looks interesting – to say the least! Enjoy the last day of February 2010 – it won’t happen again.

Butterfly

I am the caterpillar – ugly, wormy, squirmy, crawling along
No one will love me - Nowhere – I belong
I retreat from mirrors - I do resist
I bask in anonymity and hide under leaves.

I am the cocoon safe alone inside – stay away, I hide
Free from intrusion, probing questions – suffrage is my life
Dispersions and pain - Nothing to gain
‘Forever’ it seems, bludgeoned with criticism and doubt – Do not remain.

Emerging from restriction and fear
I flutter around a sight to be revered
Amassed in colour bright and subdued
Representations of changes yellow and hue
Sweet song of joy – changes embraced
Fear not sweet soul – it is never too late!

“In celebration of the human spirit and those who have the courage to change”

• The Butterfly symbolises transmutation and the Dance of Joy!
• Transformation is inevitable.
• It does not have to be painful or traumatic.
• It can be as joyful and colourful as we wish.

Peace, Love and Joy,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Choice

Reconsider a commitment. You have the right to change your mind.

Change and surprise are key themes for the number five day. A positive affirmation would be: “I welcome change and rejoice in the new.” Try to do something different today – be flexible. Change your routine. Promote and advertise yourself or your products. Look at another side of life.

The Moon in Leo offers a creative vibe to the day. There were lots of creative surges over the past week at the Conference I attended. Now, I feel a little drained. The Leo Moon will no doubt pick me up and take me toward a new location or a new well of creativity. Stay tuned and watch this space.

I don’t really want to go into too much detail about the week that was only to say that it was wonderful and hectic. We all had a great time but the work we pushed through brought about phenomenal results. I believe we achieved all of our objectives and I know that the outcomes will bring great results. I am also confident that there will be lots of changes because of the conference – good or bad – change will take place.

Judgement appears as a reminder to shed the expectations of the past – don’t wallow in the disappointment – instead bask in the glory of now. You (we) become vulnerable when stripped of expectations and personal truths. In this phase of release see it as a positive phase of rebirth which highlights the exquisite prospect of a golden future.

The Chariot hauls us forward – get on board or miss your opportunity to move in the grove of all things possible. Don’t be afraid to scream and shout. It’s time to hold on tight to the reigns and allow the movement of time take you (me) in a new direction.

The Hierophant counsels with wise deliberation. The melting of emotion is rife with self abuse. Allow yourself time in the temple of wisdom to full appreciate the beauty of you.

Bask in the golden energy of the Leo lunar phase and sprinkle the golden rays of optimism on the banquet of life.

Ghost Dance

From the bushes we gazed upon the water
Lights dancing in perfect harmony
Beneath the structure of the temple of wisdom
We had trudged very far just to be here.

The lights assembled into a glowing vibrating vision
Wings of brilliance, elongated body, a crane of incredible balance
A ripple below on the water so still
Stars above, emanating from feathered wings so brilliant
We sat trans-focused; what a thrill?

The reflection of the surreal bird mirrored the perfection of self
The journey to the temple has been hell!
Now, the sublime was our reward
Proud we stood assured in our knowledge
When you are open, take risks, you come back to you!
The temple resides within us all
So, don’t feel so glim and live life on a whim
Foundations of lessons and challenges past
Open yourself and find freedom in your heart!

Peace, Love and Happiness,
Gee it’s great to be back home!

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Progress

Charge forward. Be willing to make mistakes.

A number eight day demands that we consider ourselves as powerful and prosperous. Be the executive of your life and affairs. You are connecting at all times to the Universal Intelligence. With the Universe as my partner, I go from success to success. We are the benevolent and director of the Kingdom we’ve created.

The Moon in Taurus supports this numerological theme. Taureans are practical and determined – they can also be focused and goal oriented. With each moon phase we tend to pick up on these qualities and attributes – so consider your goals – re-evaluate and see how you are tracking.

My subconscious choices reveal a theme of movement. Actually, the first card, the Wheel of Fortune has a theme park essence. Prizes are won or lost on the spin of this wheel. Progress may come with two steps forward and one backwards. Ultimately, however there is progress.

Have you ever found yourself in a situation where you continuously knock your head against a brick wall? You know that you are not making any real progress and yet you (for whatever reason) maintain the status quo and keep up this behaviour. And then a tiny crack appears and a little peep hole – you look through the hole and you can see a bright shinny light and then you say to yourself – well, that wasn’t so difficult after all, now was it?

The High Priestess coaxes us through the dark times. She knows the power of positive thought and recognises the crevice of hope. Don’t be afraid to embrace your dark side – allow the fear and foibles to surfaces – just don’t wallow in the misery for too long. No one likes a whiner!

The Sun glows with all the promises of a sunrise. This is your day – make the most of it – don’t waste a minute. Your life will slip away in an instant. I am forever wishing for the glory of now! What about you?

Life is so short. We seem to waste the seconds and minutes with useless fears and regrets. File them away in a folder of miscellaneous human experiences and bask in the beauty of the moment.

Speaking of the future I am off this week at a conference and won’t be posting any new journal entries. Feel free to delve into the archives and reconnect with the lessons of the past.

See you next week. Before I go here is a poem I wrote when I was seriously over weight. I began the healthy lifestyle commitment with recognising the beauty within and accepting me for who I was. I still love this poem as it reminds me of the power of self love. I hope you like it too!

The Perfect Vehicle for my Soul

I stare and glare at the vision before me. No, not a model or an exquisite sight with hips and thighs just right
The body is soft and round my chins double up and I frown. My smile is honest and my smile wide I am looking at the perfect vehicle for my soul. This vehicle could use some modification, I guess. There are some imperfections that could be gently modified.
However, I would if I could, Hmmmm, I just hesitate! Oh! Maybe I should! Then it would not be a perfect vehicle for my soul. I sigh a while and am gratified with this naked vision splendor before me. Maybe a diet?
I am sure if I try it.
Will it work?
No doubt! I throw back my head and I shout. I like what I see, it is incredible to be Well after all it’s never let me down To get me around, This incredible vehicle for my soul
I gently caress and feel the bliss of my touch on my lips. I slide down to my hips. Well maybe an inch or two to graft and to craft The perfect symbol of woman
To the knees – Oh! Please! Not now, I couldn’t imagine or wouldn’t Envisage a better vehicle for my soul. My mind wonders and I linger longer At the vision staring back at me The comments, the slights on many a restless night
I have tossed and I have turned From venom that has been spurned Rejected from words that don’t belong
To the perfect vehicle for my soul My soul is pure I know this much to be true My heart is strong and I know that I belong. To feel alive, to live and to thrive To celebrate before it is too late The incredible sight on this very night The perfect vehicle for my soul
Visual images display how we should look today. I sigh and I laugh – tee hee, ha ha – no way! For you and me and I am sure that you will agree This is not me and could never be! For we all know we have a long way to go And confidence is truth And to be certain THAT these body’s is the most Wondrous vehicle for our soul!

Peace, Love and Happiness,

Julia Ashton-Sayers